Often, what I see is people flailing around, they don’t seem to have a grasp on things. And the hilarious thing is, one, we want these people’s approval and, two, we seem to think it a good idea to ask advice of them.
I think we’re all slightly hoping that someone will know what’s going on, what we should do and we ask, for the outside chance, that they can tell us how to progress.
We subscribe to e-mail lists.
We bookmark inspirational music.
We watch certain people we like to get ‘that’ pearl of wisdom.
But no one has our answers but we ourselves. We have to walk the path ourselves and that opens us up to all manner of risk. I had a very angry man shouting at me for, ostensibly, walking a matter of yards to a gate and back again, on land that didn’t even belong to him. He was so angry he crossed the street to tell me he’d call the police.
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Thing is, I’ve tried lots of different things, tried to please a lot of different people, tried to cram myself into stuff that simply wasn’t right for me but, slowly and steadily, learned lessons and I accept that it’s all water under the bridge.
It feels very messy and that irks me like you wouldn’t believe. I crave neatness, which really is wanting total control. I have a massive perfectionistic streak, which means I’m terrified of getting things ‘wrong’.
Fitness
Business
Relationships
Spiritual Connection
It’s a minefield and we know it. It feels like one wrong move and it’s Game Over! We’re programmed and we don’t know how far back it goes. What we forget is how resilient we can be, what we’re capable of.
Many times we question…
Who am I?
Where am I?
What am I doing?
Endless questions and the only answers come in experience. We know this too! You have to throw yourself in and get mucky and eventually you learn to focus on what you’re doing. That’s the distinguishing factor, a passionate and purposeful commitment to what you can offer.
I still feel like I have a massive way to go, I am highly doubtful of myself and harsh as well, I put it down to standards in part.
I WANT to do well.
I WANT to do better.
Bit of an endless cycle but I think a worthy one.
Remember, it’s your life.