I’ve had a few days off.
No blogging.
No videography.
No engaging on Twitter.
I’ve actually felt the need to do it for weeks and weeks and in the run up to Friday therapy I started (and discussed it at length with my therapist!).
I realised the prisons I’ve experienced, I’ve totally created them for myself and people-pleasing is the biggest.
Reconnecting is about creating the world I want, recording content when I want to rather than it simply being a formulaic task that I MUST record every single day for YouTube.
For those three days, whenever I felt a jolt of conscience I wrote it down, what emotion was occurring? Did I feel liberated, did I feel guilty? What kind of mental and emotional states do I want to embody in my future?
Reconnecting is about getting conscious. I see numerous people flailing around, not looking in the direction they’re walking (literally and figuratively), sleepwalking through life. I don’t want to be one of those people.
Yes, there’s advice.
Yes, there are different strategies.
Yes, you’ll have to search high and low to find the one for you.
I come back to this – play around with it. In a year’s time when you’ve connected with what works for you, it honestly will not matter a jot how you decided to strategise the noble and necessary work you need to do.
I’ve pressurised myself so much to the point of numbness and I’ve done it many times. I’m slowly learning to give myself a break and do what I want to do in the way I want to do it.
Steady.
Free-flowing.
Powerfully productive.
Reconnect with who YOU are.