LESSONS LEARNT

There’s plenty of stuff we don’t know.

There’s a large cohort of Christians in my followers and I am sure they have many things to say about my being gay. By the way, I pray twice daily myself. I find it very 

I don’t understand being gay either. Genetically, it makes absolutely no sense for me to be a particular sexual orientation and not pass it on. It does seem like gay men delve into wildly creative and artistic pursuits and have been warriors and inventors too. They do lots of drugs and often seem to die quiet young.

Who knows? I just know that my boyfriend and I fit like hand and glove and we support each other, have great fun too.

I don’t begrudge people their opinions, I share many of them, the ones I disagree with, I simply accept that’s where they are. I think we’ve learnt that violence doesn’t really help anything, right? 

Some seem themselves as hammers, I prefer to think of myself as a screwdriver – an assisting tool to guide things into the right place. I half-joke that I am a lover not a fighter. I value peace these days far more highly than discord or stress.

No, I am not a perfect little angel but I am certainly doing my level best to move freely and easily where I am now than where I was in London.

It seems to me that everyone wants their version to be right. We’re all from different strokes and we have very different ways of doing things. Maybe there’s a place for everything but, again, I don’t know.

I’m perfectly willing to say we know nothing.

I’m perfectly willing to admit the story of history we’ve been told is bullshit.

I’m perfectly fine with people trying to manipulate me, I just don’t have to buy it.

I see a lot of injustice mongering and people wanting to get angry over everything but been there, done that and bought the T-Shirt for me.

The thing I find the most funny is how people still believe there are political means out of the mess when politics is designed to be messy, to divide and rule and to programme.

I see this all the time now, rewatching TV programmes from my childhood and catching, in full view, the subtle manipulations and gerrymandering of ‘people in the know’ wanting to portray various worldviews that no intelligent nor moral person would want but get cajoled into under the pretence of being a ‘good’ person.

This is the acceptable view.

That is wrong think.

Look out for it, learn to laugh at the pantomime, start building your ‘own thing’ as soon as you can.

Make money – don’t feel bad about it, it’s simply another resource (tool) to enhance your mission. If you understand that money is a means of exchange, you can have perfectly noble motivations for wanting to make it and need it.

Be reflective – you can feel in your body when things are right. Trust yourself, make decisions peacefully and firmly. Don’t dillydally. Get on with it.

Listen – people are infinitely willing to share stories about their lives with you. You’ll be amazed at what you can learn by being genuinely interested.

I can’t give you answers, that’s up to you. What I can tell you is my life immeasurably improved when I realised that more people wanted the best for me than I realised and when I started wanting better things for myself.

A year ago, I moved back to where I grew up and, despite it feeling a massive undertaking, I know I will buy back the house where I spent most of my childhood. I don’t know exactly how but I have my ideas and I know the work I have to do.

Believe in great things.

Believe in the goodness in people.

Believe in yourself. It all starts and ends with you.