THEY CAN’T TELL YOU.

Advice is fine – asking for help is fine.

You can hear something and be curious about it.

I’m in a constant state of experimentation to see what works and it’s fascinating.

Everyone has their opinions, even if they say they don’t.

They have some kind of plan or worldview and they stick to it. Nothing much shifts and, to be honest, they generally don’t like it if you do something different.

In recent months, as I concluded yesterday, I’ve been exploring the materialist mindset. Having joined a masturbation community,

…I can’t deny it, I am a very sexual person, I have very powerful sexual instincts and fantasies, I rather enjoy it! Seeing a hot builder or scaffolder and imagining what he and I would do together, woof!…

I’ve been observing the “I’m just my cock/penis/dong/dick” mentality and it’s very arousing but, for me, it excludes the spiritual aspect of life. We don’t just have physical instincts, we have value and principle instincts too – and creative ones. I don’t want a life devoid of those but I don’t deny the desirous drives in us either. Try things, scratch the itch, that’s all I’m really doing.

We’re different but similar.

We want togetherness with respect.

We want freedom but not chaos or violence.

You have to find your own balance, follow your own talents and gifts, no one can actually tell you what’s right for you. You have to feel it yourself and trust it.

Question is, do you trust yourself?